Blue Moon...

Blue Moon... You saw me standing alone, without a dream in my heart, without a love on my own…
It was like shooting a sitting duck. A little long talk, a smile and there I was… stuck! I still don't know what you've done to me. A grown-up woman should never fall so easily like that, and I felt a kind of fear when you were near me… Maybe I was guessing what was about to happen.
I've had a few little love affairs, they didn't last very long and they've been pretty scarce, I used to think that was sensible, but it makes the truth even more incomprehensible, because everything is new for me now and all I've learned has definitely overturned.
I wasn't jealous before we met, now every woman I think of is a potential threat, I feel it isn't nice. You've heard me saying that smoking was my only vice. But now it isn't true. Now everything is new, everything is different and unsatisfied, I skip my pride, and I keep thinking of you.
Well, I would like to know how much longer it will take to cure this. ‘Cause I feel like a snowball running down, melting under sunlight. I want to hear your whisper once again…, no, it is even worse, I feel I am all of a suddenly “accidentally” in love. But I can't take a chance on you, that's something I could never do, there's that look in your eyes, I can read in your face that your feelings are driving you wild. I can chat with you, flirt a little, maybe… But better slow down, I can see what you want, but you also seem to be searching for that kind of fun, so maybe I'm not the one, not now. I like your style and I know what you mean when you give me a flash of that smile. We know the start and we know the end, masters of the scene, we’ve done it all before and now we’re back, although it is never the same.
So take it now or leave it, now is all we get, nothing promised, no regrets, no big decision, you know what to do and I know what you think… looking mighty proud. I’m really glad you came. But I can see you waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile, I watch you go with that well-known sadness and I have to close my eyes for a while. I feel the feeling that you are going away, and now it’s for good, now it’s forever and I didn’t even get the chance of entering your world.
But I will still feel glad whenever I can share your laughter, that funny old friend of mine, just like the past… I try to capture every minute, the feeling in it… Do I really see what's in your mind? Each time I think I'm close to know, you keep on leaving, slipping through my fingers all the time.
But once there was a moment, I remember sleep in our eyes, you and me at a sort of lunch table, barely awake, I let precious time go by, then when you’re gone there's that odd melancholy feeling and a sense of guilt I can't deny. What happened to the wonderful adventures of ours? The places we had planned for us to go to? Well, some of that we did, but most we didn't and why? I just don't know. Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture and save it from the funny tricks of life. And I still don’t know weather I would freeze our past or our today. So the only thing I ask you is not to go wasting your emotion all around, even if you refuse to lay your love on me, but you are too precious for just anyone…
Love always, your friend since always…
Me